I've move on :)

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"Laughter gives us distance.
It allows us to step back from an event,
deal with it and then move on.”.

Bob Newhart
US comedian & television actor (1929 - )

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Jump out from a fiction book!

Last night,
What an experience!

It was totally like coming out of a fiction book,
where the main character caught her loves one sleeping with other girl.

I know it is my consequences though
Because it was my decision for not sleeping with him,
Not to give my virginity to him.

Despite that, I hate the fact he lied to me.
I hate the fact he wants to come back to my life
After he broke up with me and I already move on.
I hate male ego!
And now after I gave him his second chance
Just to find out that he made my world upside down
and then decided to get back with that girl..
Thanks a lot.

(Is it true that we shouldn’t give any second chance?
We shouldn’t get back at all with our EXs?
Yeah… I’m too naïve apparently…
I need to learn more about love and relationships)

In some weird way, I felt liberated.
I give thanks to God that I found out about this
Two days before my exam because I know I can study better now.
Since he got back into my life, I can’t be myself.
I felt so insecure that I need to hear from him like everyday,
Every so often and that made me can’t live my life to the fullest.
And I hate that!

(I heard the ‘right man’ should make you feel like yourself more
And not the other way around, right?)

I was going to say anyway to him that I think it is not working out between us.
I am not being myself when you are in my life and I can’t deal with it.
However, being a girl, it is so hard to be strong and say such things!
Usually we compromise with our feelings and accept things even though
It is not seems right anymore…

Now, again, I’m thankful because I bump into this
It truly is made me sealed all the streets-of-hope being with him in my heart.
And I know I can move on.

Thanks for all my dearest friends and family for being here with me
I’m so blessed to have you all in my life :)



Ps. For some reason,
This past 2 days I really like this song…

Usai Sudah - by Tangga


Di dalam kesunyian
Kau dan aku terdiam
Bersiap untuk hadapi kenyataan
Bahwa jalan terbaik, bagi sebuah
Hubungan tanpa ikrar adalah berpisah

Usai segalanya di sini
Semua tak mungkin lagi ku beri
Karna kau bukan cinta yang sungguh
Jujur aku tak sanggup lagi
Terus membohongi hati nurani
Kita hanya s'pasang manusia
Yang salah memahami cinta

Sempat ego bicara
Pada pendirian kita
Mencoba tuk memaksakan
Dan acuhkan logika
Bahwa meskipun cinta tak harus memiliki
Namun jalinan cinta tetap perlu janji

Usai segalanya di sini
Semua tak mungkin lagi ku beri
Karna kau bukan cinta yang sungguh
Jujur aku tak sanggup lagi
Terus membohongi hati nurani
Kita hanya s'pasang manusia
Yang salah memahami cinta

Bersiap untuk hadapi kenyataan
Bahwa jalan terbaik bagi sebuah
Hubungan tanpa ikrar adalah berpisah
Karna jalinan cinta tetap perlu janji

Usai sampai di sini
Tak mungkin lagi ku beri .. padamu..
Oohh.. Cintaku yang ternyata semu

Jujur aku tak sanggup lagi
Terus membohongi hati nurani
Kita hanya s'pasang manusia
Yang salah memahami cinta