Mimpi Buruk
Di dalam mimpi itu
Aku menari sendiri di dalam pelangi
Dimanakah dirimu?
Adakah pelangi lain tempat kau menari?
Di dalam mimpi itu
Aku bertemu dengan peri bunga
Tapi aku tak dapat menemukanmu
Adakah hutan lain tempat kau berada?
Aku menyentuh sudut mataku
Ada bekas tangis disana
Aku terbangun rupanya
Dan tak ada kau dalam mimpiku
Masih mencari kesadaran penuh
Aku mencari dirimu
Dimanakah dirimu?
Tangis pelan membuat mataku keruh
'Baby? What did happen?' tanyamu
'Did you have a bad dream?'
Kataku,
'Yes. I dreamed of a world without you'
'It was just a dream' katamu
'I'm here and I'm not planning of going anywhere without you'
Kataku,
'World without you is just too sad'
'You mean the world to me' katamu
'And am planning to stay with you for a long time.. So, you are stuck with me'
Aku kehabisan kata-kata
Hanya senyum manis untukmu
Dan aku tak ingin tertidur lagi
Karena sekarang aku tahu
Kenyataan hidupku
Sungguh lebih indah dari mimpi
For JDF, you make my life brighter, thank you.
Las Vegas 8.46pm 9/30/08
--
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Monday, September 29, 2008
Our date at Adventure Dome :")
Adventure Dome
Circus Circus Hotel & Casino, Las Vegas
Canyon Blaster roller coaster (we went twice!)
Pirate's ship
Inverter (only me)
Balloon ride
The Marvin the Martian 4D theater
Haunted House simulator (I hate this one, btw, make me nauseous)
Sling shot
Bumper - canyon cars
The kenya acrobat in the hotel circus area ~ so cool
Throw the dart to pop the balloon game (Jason won him a lil frog plushie)
Goin fishing game (I won me ~ Steve Bob teddy bear)
Throw a ball to a bucket game (Jason won me the pink giraffe ~ we named her Cherry Darling)
Next time in adventure dome:
~ Rim runner
~ Carousel
~ Laser blast
~ SimEx Theater featuring SpongeBob SquarePants 4-D Ride
Hopefully in November!
all together tho
we had so much FUN! ^_^
That afternoon,
I was sleepy and tired.
We got back to his apartment
and I took a nap at his futon
before driving to the airport
and pick Ling and Daniel up,,
Anyway, I got sad dreams while took the nap
that he's leaving me or something like that
(can't remember the detail)..
Found myself woke up with tears,
but he's there, wake me up in time like he promised,
and he held me when I said I had a bad dreams..
He said, "I won't go anywhere.. I'm not leaving you..
It was just a dream.. You are stuck with me."
And then I felt okay, better, and realized
that I am so blessed to meet this guy,
whom I got to call, my boyfriend..
:')
Monday, September 22, 2008
Our two months
It was our two months, 9/15/08 (Monday)..
We went to Mon Ami Gabi @ Paris, Las Vegas..
I wore a dress..
Jason dressed up with dress shirt and a vest..
(OMG he looked so nice ^_^)
Fine dining restaurant..
~Les Froids - Cold Appetizers:
Chicken Liver Mousse ~burgundy red wine mustard,
warm country bread
~Les Potages - Soups:
Soup du Jour
~Les Viandes - Steak Frites:
Hanger Steak ~butcher's cut, merlot butter
~Gabi's Classics:
Pork chop
~Wine:
Crozes Hermitage - Jean Luc Columbo, 05 - nadia's wine
Châteauneuf-Du-Pape - Sylvain Fessy, 05 - jason's wine
He gave me Wall-E ost CD (our 3rd date- movie), Enchanted ost CD (I did ask this one before), a lovely card with lovely quote,
and a purple bag :)
I gave him comics I thought he might like:
All star superman & Superman:Last Son.
It's been an amazing two months
and like the quote on the card;
"To get the full value of JOY,
you must have someone to divide it with"
- Mark Twain -
Happy two months and beyond, babe
^_^
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Two Hundreds :)
200 My middle name:
DEASHINTA
199 I was born in:
JAKARTA, INDONESIA
198 I am really:
BLESSED
197 My phone is:
BESIDE ME
196 My eye color is:
BLACK
194 My height is:
5'2”
193 I am allergic to:
DUST
192 I was born on:
4/26
191 I am annoyed by:
LOUD NOISES
190 Last book you read:
NEW MOON
189 My bed is:
COMFY!
188 My favorite holiday is:
CHRISTMAS
187 The last four cds i bought were:
CAN’T REMEMBER
186 Are you living with someone?
MY ROOMMATES
185 Do you have any siblings?
YEP
184 What did you do yesterday?:
MET WITH JASON’S PARENTS FOR THE 1ST TIME! :’)
:::I Do /Do Not Believe In:::
141 spirits?:
SURE
140 Fate?:
SOMETIMES
139 Yourself?:
SOMETIMES
138 Aliens?:
YEP. I CAN’T IMAGINE WE ARE ALONE IN THE UNIVERSE
137 Heaven?:
YEP
134 Horoscopes?:
JUST FOR FUN
133 Soulmates?:
MAYBE
:::Which is Better?:::
127 Phone or online?
PHONE
125 Blondes or Brunettes?
EITHER
124 Hot or cold?:
HOT
123 Summer or winter?
SUMMER
121 Chocolate or vanilla icecream?
CHOCOLATE
120 Night or day?
NIGHT
119 Oranges or Apples?:
ORANGES
118 Curly or Straight hair?:
DEPENDS
:::Here's What I Think About:::
116 Abortion......
IM PRO LIFE
115 Backstabbers....
LEAVE ME ALONE
::Last time I:::
100 Hugged someone?
THIS MORNING
101 Seen somebody:
A SECOND AGO
:::MISC:::
90 Who is the ditziest person you know:
UMMM…
89 Who makes you laugh the most?
NO BODY BEATS FRANCIS WISENDHA (YET) HAHA
88 Last movie you watched?
BURN AFTER READING
82 What I don't understand is:
WHY TWILIGHT, THE MOVIE IS STILL 2 MONTHS AWAY
80 The most unsatisfying answer I've ever received is:
IT’S NOT YOU, IT’S ME LOL
76 Something I will really miss when I leave my hometown for good?
FRIENDS, FAMILY AND INDONESIAN FOODS
75 The thing I'm looking forward to the most is:
TO MEET MY FAMILY AGAIN
74 Things that make you mad:
HARDLY GET MAD ~ AM A HAPPY PERSON :)
73 The Person That Makes You Be You?
MY PARENTS
72 Today?
PRETTY GOOD
71 Next Summer:
SHOULD BE GOOD
70 This Weekend:
TO GOOD TO BE TRUE
67 People call me:
NADIA, NAD, DEE-DEE, NADJA, NA, NA-NA, NAE, NADSE
62 The person(s) who knows the most about me is:
STELLA
60 The most difficult thing to do is:
SAYING GOODBYE
59 I have gotten a speeding ticket:
NO
58 The first person I talked to today was?
JASON
54 First time you had a crush:
5TH GRADE
53 The one person who I can't hide things from?
STELLA
52 Last time someone said something you were thinking:
LAST NIGHT
51 Right now I am talking to
MY DEAREST SISTER WHO’S GOING TO GET MARRIED IN TWO WEEKS ^^
50 What is your dream job?
PUBLIC HEALTH PROFESSIONAL ~ DOING PUBLIC HEALTH PROGRAM FOR COMMUNITY
47 I have a problem with:
UNCERTAINTY
46 I wish:
TO SEE RAINBOW (AND UNICORN)
44 The person that makes me cry the most is:
ME
43 Best sound in the world?
THE OCEAN
42 Who makes you happy?
FAMILY AND FRIENDS AND MY BF
35 Myspace or Facebook?
FACEBOOK
32 My favorite color is:
PURPLE
29 My computer is?
TOSHIBA
28 MY Favorite food:
SUSHI
27 Last person who made you sad?
ME
25 Favorite place:
JAKARTA & LAS VEGAS
24 Favorite song:
A WHOLE NEW WORLD
23 Paper or plastic?
PAPER
22 The all-time best movie(s) is/are:
ALL DISNEY MOVIES, 50 FIRST DATES, LOVE ACTUALLY
21 The all-time best feeling in the world is:
LOVE
19 What color is your hairbrush:?
I HAVE A FEW – PINK, PURPLE, WHITE
18 Favorite shoes:
SERGIO ROSSI.. LOL TOO EXPENSIVE
I WILL GO WITH AMERICAN EAGLE
17 I lose all respect for people who:
TOO JUDGEMENTAL
15 Color of the room you are in right now?:
SOFT PINK AND BROWN
13 Best Feature in the opposite sex:
SEXY BUTT :p
12 Best feature in you?
U TELL ME ;)
11 The worst pain I was ever in?
TOOTHACHE
10 Favorite TV Shows:
DISNEY CHANNEL, HOUSE, SCRUBS, FRIENDS, UGLY BETTY, CSI, FAMILY GUY
9 Greatest Fear:
ABANDONMENT
8 Who broke your heart?
WHOEVER DID IT, IT WAS ON THE PAST
7 worst day of your life:
ANY DAY I WAS REALLY SICK
5 Favorite drink:
LATELY, CHOCOLATE MILK & GUINNESS
4 your role model:
MY MOM
3 Name of your future Children:
I SORT OF LIKE VIOLET AND NATHAN (NOT STEVE/BOB OBVIOUSLY! LOL)
2 Are you a family person
VERY MUCH
1 Do you wish you could turn back time:
NOT REALLY – IM VERY THANKFUL FOR PRESENT
SO LET’S LIVE OUR LIFE AT ITS FULLEST ~
LAUGH AT ALL THE THINGS THAT DON’T MATTER
LOVE WITH ALL THAT WE HAVE AND MORE
:)
DEASHINTA
199 I was born in:
JAKARTA, INDONESIA
198 I am really:
BLESSED
197 My phone is:
BESIDE ME
196 My eye color is:
BLACK
194 My height is:
5'2”
193 I am allergic to:
DUST
192 I was born on:
4/26
191 I am annoyed by:
LOUD NOISES
190 Last book you read:
NEW MOON
189 My bed is:
COMFY!
188 My favorite holiday is:
CHRISTMAS
187 The last four cds i bought were:
CAN’T REMEMBER
186 Are you living with someone?
MY ROOMMATES
185 Do you have any siblings?
YEP
184 What did you do yesterday?:
MET WITH JASON’S PARENTS FOR THE 1ST TIME! :’)
:::I Do /Do Not Believe In:::
141 spirits?:
SURE
140 Fate?:
SOMETIMES
139 Yourself?:
SOMETIMES
138 Aliens?:
YEP. I CAN’T IMAGINE WE ARE ALONE IN THE UNIVERSE
137 Heaven?:
YEP
134 Horoscopes?:
JUST FOR FUN
133 Soulmates?:
MAYBE
:::Which is Better?:::
127 Phone or online?
PHONE
125 Blondes or Brunettes?
EITHER
124 Hot or cold?:
HOT
123 Summer or winter?
SUMMER
121 Chocolate or vanilla icecream?
CHOCOLATE
120 Night or day?
NIGHT
119 Oranges or Apples?:
ORANGES
118 Curly or Straight hair?:
DEPENDS
:::Here's What I Think About:::
116 Abortion......
IM PRO LIFE
115 Backstabbers....
LEAVE ME ALONE
::Last time I:::
100 Hugged someone?
THIS MORNING
101 Seen somebody:
A SECOND AGO
:::MISC:::
90 Who is the ditziest person you know:
UMMM…
89 Who makes you laugh the most?
NO BODY BEATS FRANCIS WISENDHA (YET) HAHA
88 Last movie you watched?
BURN AFTER READING
82 What I don't understand is:
WHY TWILIGHT, THE MOVIE IS STILL 2 MONTHS AWAY
80 The most unsatisfying answer I've ever received is:
IT’S NOT YOU, IT’S ME LOL
76 Something I will really miss when I leave my hometown for good?
FRIENDS, FAMILY AND INDONESIAN FOODS
75 The thing I'm looking forward to the most is:
TO MEET MY FAMILY AGAIN
74 Things that make you mad:
HARDLY GET MAD ~ AM A HAPPY PERSON :)
73 The Person That Makes You Be You?
MY PARENTS
72 Today?
PRETTY GOOD
71 Next Summer:
SHOULD BE GOOD
70 This Weekend:
TO GOOD TO BE TRUE
67 People call me:
NADIA, NAD, DEE-DEE, NADJA, NA, NA-NA, NAE, NADSE
62 The person(s) who knows the most about me is:
STELLA
60 The most difficult thing to do is:
SAYING GOODBYE
59 I have gotten a speeding ticket:
NO
58 The first person I talked to today was?
JASON
54 First time you had a crush:
5TH GRADE
53 The one person who I can't hide things from?
STELLA
52 Last time someone said something you were thinking:
LAST NIGHT
51 Right now I am talking to
MY DEAREST SISTER WHO’S GOING TO GET MARRIED IN TWO WEEKS ^^
50 What is your dream job?
PUBLIC HEALTH PROFESSIONAL ~ DOING PUBLIC HEALTH PROGRAM FOR COMMUNITY
47 I have a problem with:
UNCERTAINTY
46 I wish:
TO SEE RAINBOW (AND UNICORN)
44 The person that makes me cry the most is:
ME
43 Best sound in the world?
THE OCEAN
42 Who makes you happy?
FAMILY AND FRIENDS AND MY BF
35 Myspace or Facebook?
32 My favorite color is:
PURPLE
29 My computer is?
TOSHIBA
28 MY Favorite food:
SUSHI
27 Last person who made you sad?
ME
25 Favorite place:
JAKARTA & LAS VEGAS
24 Favorite song:
A WHOLE NEW WORLD
23 Paper or plastic?
PAPER
22 The all-time best movie(s) is/are:
ALL DISNEY MOVIES, 50 FIRST DATES, LOVE ACTUALLY
21 The all-time best feeling in the world is:
LOVE
19 What color is your hairbrush:?
I HAVE A FEW – PINK, PURPLE, WHITE
18 Favorite shoes:
SERGIO ROSSI.. LOL TOO EXPENSIVE
I WILL GO WITH AMERICAN EAGLE
17 I lose all respect for people who:
TOO JUDGEMENTAL
15 Color of the room you are in right now?:
SOFT PINK AND BROWN
13 Best Feature in the opposite sex:
SEXY BUTT :p
12 Best feature in you?
U TELL ME ;)
11 The worst pain I was ever in?
TOOTHACHE
10 Favorite TV Shows:
DISNEY CHANNEL, HOUSE, SCRUBS, FRIENDS, UGLY BETTY, CSI, FAMILY GUY
9 Greatest Fear:
ABANDONMENT
8 Who broke your heart?
WHOEVER DID IT, IT WAS ON THE PAST
7 worst day of your life:
ANY DAY I WAS REALLY SICK
5 Favorite drink:
LATELY, CHOCOLATE MILK & GUINNESS
4 your role model:
MY MOM
3 Name of your future Children:
I SORT OF LIKE VIOLET AND NATHAN (NOT STEVE/BOB OBVIOUSLY! LOL)
2 Are you a family person
VERY MUCH
1 Do you wish you could turn back time:
NOT REALLY – IM VERY THANKFUL FOR PRESENT
SO LET’S LIVE OUR LIFE AT ITS FULLEST ~
LAUGH AT ALL THE THINGS THAT DON’T MATTER
LOVE WITH ALL THAT WE HAVE AND MORE
:)
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Getting to know each other [part 2]
It was our second argument..
Twice this week.. :'(
*ughh
But it was because of long day of work,
misunderstanding, I was in the class
(so the argument was over texting),
He just woke up from nap (~ still cranky hehe),
last minute plan change (I hate that),
But the important thing is
we survived without a fight :)
and like Jason said, we are getting to know
each other boundaries (and I agree) ..
So.. He apologize..
I apologize..
He bought pizza ~ supreme - with mushroom
& meat lovers, both are my fave :),
Lindt milk chocolate truffles, and ..
He gave me his clicker
(clicker = remote control for the gate)
to go to his apartment complex!!
:')
It just mean A LOT to me.
He was saying that it would be more convienient
for me to come to his place, if I have the clicker..
And so that I could come over more often,
if I want ~ anytime I want :)
YAY!!
I'm just so happy
whenever I get into my car
and see the clicker there..
Like a lil' girl who first got her barbie doll
even more happier than that :)
:) :) :)
Twice this week.. :'(
*ughh
But it was because of long day of work,
misunderstanding, I was in the class
(so the argument was over texting),
He just woke up from nap (~ still cranky hehe),
last minute plan change (I hate that),
But the important thing is
we survived without a fight :)
and like Jason said, we are getting to know
each other boundaries (and I agree) ..
So.. He apologize..
I apologize..
He bought pizza ~ supreme - with mushroom
& meat lovers, both are my fave :),
Lindt milk chocolate truffles, and ..
He gave me his clicker
(clicker = remote control for the gate)
to go to his apartment complex!!
:')
It just mean A LOT to me.
He was saying that it would be more convienient
for me to come to his place, if I have the clicker..
And so that I could come over more often,
if I want ~ anytime I want :)
YAY!!
I'm just so happy
whenever I get into my car
and see the clicker there..
Like a lil' girl who first got her barbie doll
even more happier than that :)
:) :) :)
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Words that I love [2]
Live your life at its fullest ~
Laugh at all the things that don't matter ~
Love with all that you have & more
<3
~~~~~~~~~~
Faith makes all things possible.
Love makes them easy.
~~~~~~~~~~
Love isn't finding a perfect person.
It's seeing an imperfect person perfectly.
~~~~~~~~~~
You have to meet a few wrong ones
before you can appreciate the right one..
~~~~~~~~~~
LOVE is being stupid together.
~~~~~~~~~~
When you are nauseous and tingly all over
it must be LOVE or smallpox :]]
~~~~~~~~~~
I'm so confused about Love,
sometimes it makes me Happy,
but other times it makes me Restless,
sometimes it makes me chew on my nails,
and sometimes are just plain worried!
But most of the time,
I just feel loved. <3
~~~~~~~~~~
When you love someone, you can tell
But when you IN love with someone, everyone else can tell. ;)
~~~~~~~~~~
Stupid butterflies in my tummy.
Stupid wishes on dandelions.
Stupid hearts on every paper.
Stupid you.
Stupid love.
~~~~~~~~~~
If you are not willing to sound Stupid
You don't deserve to be In Love..
~~~~~~~~~~
Love is when you don't want to go to sleep
because reality is better than a Dream.
~~~~~~~~~~
Somewhere between all our laughs,
long talks,
stupid little fights,
and all our jokes,
I fell in love.. <3
~~~~~~~~~~
Anyone can catch your Eye.
But it need someone special to catch your Heart.
~~~~~~~~~~
You make me *Laugh
when I don't even want to Smile..
~~~~~~~~~~
There is over six billion people in the world,
but all you need is that one .. Just for you!
~~~~~~~~~~
Because you live,
my world has twice as many stars in the sky..
~~~~~~~~~~
Love is Love
Love is You
I love love
So I love You
~~~~~~~~~~
The spaces between my fingers
are meant to be filled with yours
~~~~~~~~~~
Who needs weed to get high
when you can just fall in love?
~~~~~~~~~~
Find Arms that will Hold you at your weakest,
Eyes that will See you at your ugliest,
and a Heart that will Love you at your worst.
Then you have found True Love..
~~~~~~~~~~
Secret #1
Sometimes I look cold just so you'll hold me
Secret #2
She needs to hear that she's beautiful
~~~~~~~~~~
You can fall from the sky
You can fall from the tree
But the best way to fall is
In love with me :P
~~~~~~~~~~
If you can't get someone out of your head,
maybe they're supposed to be there
~~~~~~~~~~
Every girl wants a man
that she can go to in her sweats,
hair a mess,
makeup running down her face,
eyes red from crying,
and the first thing he says to her
is "Baby, you are beautiful"
and means it.
~~~~~~~~~~
Lovin you is like breathing
How can I stop?
~~~~~~~~~~
The measure of love is
To love without measure
~~~~~~~~~~
Love is a movement
discovering each other
~~~~~~~~~~
I could love you forever
So why can't forever starts today?
~~~~~~~~~~
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Getting to know each other ~ 1.5 months dating ~ first week of September 08 [part 1]
I wasn't feeling well
inside my stomach was like all twisted
and it was not a pleasant feeling.
On top of that, my hormones are killing
me.. this has been a rough PMS time for me!
:(
Spent Friday at Pogo's Jazz Bar ~ cool place
with Jason, Sara & Claire
end up staying over his place because I'm
a bit drunk and not feeling well enough to drive
across town in the middle of the night..
so.. and I stayed until like lunch the next day
(by this time I think we already spent too much
time together since what I got from him
is that he kind of sick of me :'(
or maybe it was just my hormone)
And I went home after lunch
and I had Ladies night that day..
I still wasn't feeling well
~ my tummy still hurts like hell
but oh well I lay down a bit
and when I wake up
I felt I miss Jason so very much
and I asked him whether
I can see him tomorrow..
which was unusual because Sunday
usually his Guys night with his friend
but I wasnt feeling well and I just
want him to be there for me
(Am I asking too much?)
Then he said "maybe"
and I realized there was tears in my eyes..
I told him I was crying over text
and he called
and he said
"I dont understand why I couldnt
have my own time tomorrow since I've spent
last night and all this morning with you"
and I couldn't handle it
and I cried.. hard... (silently tho)
and I said "Okay.. Whatever..
You can do whatever you want.. I don't care"
I arrived at Anna's for Ladies night
and told him that I'll let him go (the phone)
and I felt like crap
(emotionally -very much more than physically)
I had a good time with the girls tho
and Geneva was wildly there in our ladies night
that was awesome..
Then there were
more than 4 hours ~I think (lost count of time)
I dont get to talk to him
...
"Babe?"
"Yes?"
"I miss you and fell horrible about before"
"My brain can't think clearly right now..
I don't know what to say to you"
"I'm sorry baby"
"Please don't hate me"
":( I'm sorry :("
"Are you still with the girls or can I call you?"
"I'm still with the girls and I don't think its a good idea to call me now"
"I won't. Are we okay?"
"We are. I still feel lil upset babe.. Its just when I'm not feeling well, am not like you, I need more attention than usual.. And you said 'maybe'.. it just hurt me. I know you didn't mean anything probably and you want your own time without me.. I'm just asking you to be there for me when I'm not feeling well... Am I asking too much?"
"Not at all babe. I understand, and I will be there for you. I was being a bit selfish and I'm sorry. Yes, you will see me tomorrow. And Monday. And maybe even Tuesday if you aren't sick of me by then. :)"
"Are u sure?"
"Yes. You are the most important person in my life, and I want you to be happy. I care about you more than you know, and love being with you."
"I'm tired.. Good night and I'll talk to you tomorrow kay?"
...
11.03am
"*hug* morning babe"
"Morning.. am driving to church now and will have lunch at Yanny's afterwards"
"Ah. Sound cool. I just woke up. didn't sleep well. Miss u. Probably head over to Coldirons about 1"
"Call me later pls?
"Umm.. okay"
"I'm heading to Coldirons now. I hope u are having a good day. I miss you like crazy too. Very much, and it kind of scares me"
"Have fun.. so do I get to see you today?"
"YES!! Of course, yes!! if you still want too"
"I did ask, didn't I? so Dinner?"
"Sounds good to me.. I do miss u babe. Thank u"
"You can still cancel with me you know,
if you want have you guys night or whatever you want"
"I want you"
"... kay.. see you tonight then?"
"yay! miss you. *kiss"
And then we meet at Aloha kitchen - Maryland Pkwy
talk bout everything.. he said he was so afraid of losing me..
and I said he did hurt me when I wasnt feeling well..
He apologize, we got to know each other better now
And that's a great thing (he said, I agree)
We walk along UNLV ~ where he used to spent much time
there.. enjoying the half-moon-night
then we went to Ellis Island for a $1 stout and
their own housemade rootbeer
and we talk, we made up and kiss..
note:
= He is a damn good kisser :P
= He gave me Dr. Horrible songs in a CD
(good idea to give a girl present when she is or after she was upset
~ doesnt have to be expensive too)
&
= He did mention that he wants me to meet his parents...
that's the story for now folks!
what a weekend.. Fiuh!
Good night
Las Vegas
inside my stomach was like all twisted
and it was not a pleasant feeling.
On top of that, my hormones are killing
me.. this has been a rough PMS time for me!
:(
Spent Friday at Pogo's Jazz Bar ~ cool place
with Jason, Sara & Claire
end up staying over his place because I'm
a bit drunk and not feeling well enough to drive
across town in the middle of the night..
so.. and I stayed until like lunch the next day
(by this time I think we already spent too much
time together since what I got from him
is that he kind of sick of me :'(
or maybe it was just my hormone)
And I went home after lunch
and I had Ladies night that day..
I still wasn't feeling well
~ my tummy still hurts like hell
but oh well I lay down a bit
and when I wake up
I felt I miss Jason so very much
and I asked him whether
I can see him tomorrow..
which was unusual because Sunday
usually his Guys night with his friend
but I wasnt feeling well and I just
want him to be there for me
(Am I asking too much?)
Then he said "maybe"
and I realized there was tears in my eyes..
I told him I was crying over text
and he called
and he said
"I dont understand why I couldnt
have my own time tomorrow since I've spent
last night and all this morning with you"
and I couldn't handle it
and I cried.. hard... (silently tho)
and I said "Okay.. Whatever..
You can do whatever you want.. I don't care"
I arrived at Anna's for Ladies night
and told him that I'll let him go (the phone)
and I felt like crap
(emotionally -very much more than physically)
I had a good time with the girls tho
and Geneva was wildly there in our ladies night
that was awesome..
Then there were
more than 4 hours ~I think (lost count of time)
I dont get to talk to him
...
"Babe?"
"Yes?"
"I miss you and fell horrible about before"
"My brain can't think clearly right now..
I don't know what to say to you"
"I'm sorry baby"
"Please don't hate me"
":( I'm sorry :("
"Are you still with the girls or can I call you?"
"I'm still with the girls and I don't think its a good idea to call me now"
"I won't. Are we okay?"
"We are. I still feel lil upset babe.. Its just when I'm not feeling well, am not like you, I need more attention than usual.. And you said 'maybe'.. it just hurt me. I know you didn't mean anything probably and you want your own time without me.. I'm just asking you to be there for me when I'm not feeling well... Am I asking too much?"
"Not at all babe. I understand, and I will be there for you. I was being a bit selfish and I'm sorry. Yes, you will see me tomorrow. And Monday. And maybe even Tuesday if you aren't sick of me by then. :)"
"Are u sure?"
"Yes. You are the most important person in my life, and I want you to be happy. I care about you more than you know, and love being with you."
"I'm tired.. Good night and I'll talk to you tomorrow kay?"
...
11.03am
"*hug* morning babe"
"Morning.. am driving to church now and will have lunch at Yanny's afterwards"
"Ah. Sound cool. I just woke up. didn't sleep well. Miss u. Probably head over to Coldirons about 1"
"Call me later pls?
"Umm.. okay"
"I'm heading to Coldirons now. I hope u are having a good day. I miss you like crazy too. Very much, and it kind of scares me"
"Have fun.. so do I get to see you today?"
"YES!! Of course, yes!! if you still want too"
"I did ask, didn't I? so Dinner?"
"Sounds good to me.. I do miss u babe. Thank u"
"You can still cancel with me you know,
if you want have you guys night or whatever you want"
"I want you"
"... kay.. see you tonight then?"
"yay! miss you. *kiss"
And then we meet at Aloha kitchen - Maryland Pkwy
talk bout everything.. he said he was so afraid of losing me..
and I said he did hurt me when I wasnt feeling well..
He apologize, we got to know each other better now
And that's a great thing (he said, I agree)
We walk along UNLV ~ where he used to spent much time
there.. enjoying the half-moon-night
then we went to Ellis Island for a $1 stout and
their own housemade rootbeer
and we talk, we made up and kiss..
note:
= He is a damn good kisser :P
= He gave me Dr. Horrible songs in a CD
(good idea to give a girl present when she is or after she was upset
~ doesnt have to be expensive too)
&
= He did mention that he wants me to meet his parents...
that's the story for now folks!
what a weekend.. Fiuh!
Good night
Las Vegas
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